If you can’t find me
I might be over here, sleeping in the empty bathtub.
- Took less than 5 minutes to roll over in bed with minimal pain.
- Got 4 hours of uninterrupted sleep.
- Had at least 3 bottles that didn’t result in hours of fussing and screaming.
- Enjoyed 2 hours of adorable, calm alert time (so what if it happened at 3am).
- All resulting in one bewildered Mommy (who is also getting a cold)
And now for a truly sincere Thank You
I doubt the transition to parenthood is ever particularly smooth. I’m sure the hormones and sleepless nights can make even the most prepared first time parent doubt themselves. I’ve been through the wringer emotionally and physically, and I know I still have a long road to emotional recovery ahead. I have an appointment with a psychiatrist in two weeks to get back on my meds. I’m lucky to have a wonderful support system in my husband, family, coworkers, and in you, yes you.
Writing about my feelings and experiences is a coping strategy for me. I feel blessed by the response I have gotten from my followers and readers here on tumblr. I’d start listing you, but in my baby brain fog I know I’d forget someone, and I don’t want to offend. So many of you have liked my posts, left encouraging comments, and offered advice. I appreciate all of it!
That Awkward Moment
When you see your neighbors while out on a walk and they turn around and go the other direction. Twice.
Thanks Lactation Consultant,
For calling back 3 weeks after I called you. That’s 3 weeks after the pain, stress, and constant tears led me to switch to formula. Let’s not forget the jaundice and dehydration my baby started to experience.
It’s also about a week after I started to come to an uneasy peace with my decision. Thank you, for attempting to invalidate all the reasons I have for choosing formula. Is it not enough that I feel inadequate and guilty every time I try to find information about feeding my child? Did you really need to pressure me and open up that emotional wound?
But finally, thank you for making me angry. Is it healthy? Probably not. But anger I can deal with. And being angry at your inappropriate and demeaning comments takes my attention away from feeling disappointed in myself.
Anonymous asked: I'm not sure you're still asking about edmodo, but if you are: I am a currently a high schooler, and we use edmodo for some of my classes and school organizations. I have found that if a teacher is invested in keeping it updated, and makes assignments on it, it can be a wonderful tool. In my AP English Lang/Comp class, for example, we have weekly posts to make in regards to articles. These lead to engaged learning and the occasional spirited debate- both of which are excellent for us students :)
Keeping it updated is the key.
I love hearing the student perspective!
I know many folks are tired of winter, but I’m over here doing snow dances. Not for myself, as it seems my district will still deduct sick time or charge me unpaid leave for a snow day. No, I’m hoping for snow so my husband can stay home with us.
More with Less
Our school board proposed a budget that included a COLA and a step increase for teachers. To fund this, the county Board of Supervisors needs to allocate more money to the schools. It’s my understanding that they have not done so in at least 6 years, and it’s been at least 8 years since teachers have gotten a step increase.
This week, the Supervisors advertised a new, lower tax rate, meaning it’s highly unlikely that the school’s budget will be funded. This isn’t just a problem for teachers struggling to make ends meet. Housing developments approved by the Supervisors have the potential to bring thousands of new students to the county, which will overwhelm an already overcrowded school. Supplies will need to stretch even farther than they are now.
And I find myself asking how long I can tolerate a community that blatantly disregards its education system. And then I wonder, where would I go that is any different? We have wonderful teachers and good students, but we can only do so much without the support of the community.
I met with all three of my cooperating teachers and am very lucky to have a great bunch of teachers to be working under. One of my teachers was especially discussing new ideas that I could implement, and brought up Edmodo. Anyone have any thoughts on it, or applications for its best use? I teach high schoolers.
I use it with my HS students. I love it, but it’s been difficult to get students to buy in. Part of it is my fault - I need to integrate it more with our day-to-day. The other problem is only a few other teachers use it, so they think it isn’t important and always “forget” to check it.
I mostly use it as an online resource for them to see what we have done, get copies of notes/handouts, and post announcements. You can also post quizzes and surveys, students can turn in assignments, and it integrates with Google Drive.
Who needs sleep?
Who has two thumbs and isn’t getting sleep? This #edumum.
Baby is a restless sleeper and I haven’t adjusted to the fact that I don’t need to check on her every noise. The dog makes noises that sound just like Baby. Husband snores and tends to partially wake in a panic.
And me? I’m a born insomniac that needs sleep to stay stable and recover.
hisnamewasbeanni has a way with coining new tags (well named, good sir!).
In addition to bethechangeyouwant's #educachums, how about if the already and soon-to-be mums (and dads) of #education tag their kid and parenting-related posts with #edumums?
It’d be a nice little offshoot community where we can bounce ideas off each other and be an online place of support.
The #education baby boom of 2014 is already underway, so this could be useful, right?
A c-section was not what I wanted to happen, but I’m mostly ok with it. Baby is healthy and mostly happy. It’s the recovery that I’m annoyed at. I am not the kind of person to sit still when something needs to get done. They encourage you to get up and move around early and often, but they also encourage you to be careful about overdoing it. After all, you are recovering from major surgery.
The first two weeks weren’t bad in terms of physical demands. I always had someone who could take Baby from me while I stood up or sat down. If I wasn’t sitting with Baby I was walking around or cleaning up after MIL. But these past two days on my own had me bending, lifting, twisting, and bouncing to taking care of Baby, and thus today I am in bed and my husband left work to come help.
While I am in pain, I will be fine with some rest. The injury feels mostly mental. It’s such a helpless feeling to know that your child is a few feet away but you can’t easily get to her without hurting yourself. I know I need to take care of myself so I can take care of her, but accepting help is hard for me, especially when the help I need feels so minimal. Remember “I lift things up and put them down”? That’s all I need.